When it is all said and done, what is next? For it is never-ending... If I
were to sum up my high school life in words, what you it be like? I would not
dare say 'to sum it all up' exactly, because I have another two months to
endure and the most crucial part is yet to come. But at the same time, I
felt almost spent, you know? I am so eager to start afresh. When I look
back at the days, there were not any major mistakes or experiences that I wish
I could erase. And I am glad I could honestly say that aloud. There were a
plethora of memories too of course, and all of it will remain as it is — warm
and heartfelt. I certainly have grown too, up to quite an extent. We may all
feel really silly for some immature things that we have done in the past but that
is really part of developing into a mellower individual.
I remembered the old days; I used to sneak out during co-curricular activities
with my crazy friends, bought novels and clothing online without the knowledge
of my parents, being so obsessed over some actors, dramas, movies and the list
goes on and on. There were also some emotional roller-coaster rides; I would be
so heartbroken and depressed due to Roger and tennis and weeping for days for a
friend. And surprisingly, I got over all these. I learned to let go and
comprehend that there are just so much more than just perceiving things from
the surface. If you became someone so prone to overreactions and sensitive to
all the negativity that people speculate and assume about you, you tend to find
yourself living in misery. It is like you tell yourself time and time again
that everything will be all right after the nerves have gone, but the truth is
that it never disappears. It will not cease and it is only a matter of time
that it will consume you again. Self-confidence and complacency is really
self-earned. And as for the Roger case, I have a different mindset towards that
aspect entirely and to the sport itself now I could just solely write on that
another time.
I am grateful to have a wonderful and supportive family, a friend or two
that I could lend my trust to to which definitely makes my life more profound;
Roger forever being the inspirational force behind everything; and of course
all these will almost be impossible without the destiny of God. For many
reasons, I appreciated and totally have reflected on the ten days my parents
left home during the end of August and beginning of this September for
vacation. I had alone time and attained all the routines so well that I even
had discovered new skills and gained further insights of independence. You
could call it a very educational experience.
Of course at times in life we always wanted to be reckless, to have a moment
or two of being less responsible. I do feel that now and then. I knew before
ending this part of my journey, I really would like to go out there and do
something fun and crazy that is worth for remembrance in reminiscing those good
old days. These moments may even come in small pieces too. For instance, I
remember how I would become so absurd when it comes to Robsten... After the all
important examination, the need to travel to a beautiful country and spend all
time with my family, taking in the beauty of nature and everything it has to
offer is crucial. I want to feel that sense of freedom and sweetness in the air
before I begin the next leg of my life.
What will I want to do next? How does the path of college life appears like? I
guess these are mysteries that are waiting to be unraveled. We will come to see
how far it goes.
PS: You could also find this original post in my WordPress but because this is the place where I initially start off by depicting my memories I thought I ought to post it on here too.
